winter break, at last!

haha! i feel so good!
well.. im actually very tired... but im also so happy that i could just blow up! winter break, guys! WINTER BREAK! could things get any better?! haha!

i havent blogged in a looong time.... just been too busy... i wont be able to blog for a long time after this too. winter break is gonna be hectic. i've got girls' league business to do.. starting with caroling then right to recording for the video for the winter formal assembly. i've got the script to write with sarah le cause we're gonna be MCs! haha! jessica! imma be like KHD! haha! i've got editting to do. homework. chem. freakin a... and going to utah? this is gonna be absolutely crazy!! also gotta go to ramsey's to drop of secret sister gift before i leave to utah! oh my goooooodnesss... haha. im sorry guys... i hear that junior GL members get super stressed and freakin snap during winter formal crunch time. please forgive me. i dont mean it. haha

thought break will be hectic, i hope it'll be fun. i hope our nominees behave and that this shiz goes well! haha (:

OH YEAAAH! i've also secret santa christmas bash!!!! haha! wooooot! monday!

oh yeah! haha. im just remembering all these things right now. im moving over break too! so we're like kinda tryign to remodel everything and my mom is giving each kid 500 bucks to do their rooooom! i'll talk to you guys on monday about it... it's gonna be fun! GIVE ME IDEAS! (: when we finish the whole house, i'll call you guys over (:

gotta go watch bleach with brother and sister... it's gonna be aweeesome! (:

-m.nguyen

sigh...

So yesterday was eventful! My sister came home from NY! it was liek she never left, i swear (: but before she got back, she found out about our family situation. and it hit her super hard. she didnt talk to anyone for a week. couldn't bring herself to talk over the phone... but she went on a roadtrip and was finally ready to talk to my mom. im glad she did.. i understand that it hurt her that she was left out... but my mommie was so scared of my sister... scared she was hated by her daughter. you could see it in her eyes when she wasnt talking to anyone. i see that look a lot in her eyes now. since summer. and i just wanna hug her. and sometimes i do... but other times... though its rare.. i think in my mind... "why did you get out sooner? now look..." this ruins my whole day. but then... she's my mommie... so i just tuck that behind me... and try my best to fake to my mom that im okay with it now... and that i dont care about what's happening to us... that i've made peace... even though... this situation has been unfair to everyone... no one has benefitted from this. at all..

but anyways...
since My, my sister came home. i decided she needed to know everything.
the whole shebang! so i asked her thoroughly if she knew that this was happening or that was happening and she said "yeah... i got caught up". but then she started asking about me... and im crying... effing My, dude. who doesnt cry when they talk about family?! and she goes and hugs me... HUGS ARE WORSE! THEY MAKE YOU CRY MORE, MY!!!! but yeah... told her everything... i know she's sad... cause she got that same look my mommie has... and it makes my heart hurt... cause... i think i feel what they're feeling... and it makes me wanna cry all over again. but i wont! cause i've done enough crying for years to come!!!

so.. as jessica said.. when its 10:10... i'll pray for zombies...
but still... everytime i see 11:11... i pray for better...


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today was cool. i texted keakea for like 8 hours straight or soemthing.... i started at liek 3... and its like 11 right now..? lol! we talked about a lot of random stuff but all serious stuff! and the memories! liek me falling asleep in corral under a chair during our halloween poem reading thingy! and him slapping me awake! lol! and when i asked him if someone jumped me, would he beat them up for me, and he totally said yes! ahaha! MEMORIES! (:

but talking to keakea reminded me yet again that i do a lot of things for my own benefit. sometimes i don't... but i do it alot.. and it makes me feel horrible inside afterwards. im constantly thinking "why cant i be more... GOOD?! why must i think about my own benefits?!" but... if it helps out... does it make it a wrong deed still... or does it just taint the good deed with bad intentions...? -sigh- eff my life.

dont you guys just love this year?

-m.nguyen

p.s. first three muskateers meeting today! we were totally B.O.D.ing!!!

BRAINBLAST!

okay so like the other day i was in the car listening to All American Rejects. They have this "hidden track" so to say but like everyone knows this song. so whatevers. it's called "sunshine" and its totally my song right now. check it out guuuuuys~ or better yet. i'll just link to make it easier for you guys...



OR NOT... lol. it doesnt work... jessica teach me (:

but continuing with my story!!!!!
so i was listening with it and it hit me that I REALLY wanna make a video! and while i was listening i came up with a plot and i just wanna write it down just in case i get time and still wanna make this happen. so best to write it when its still FRESH in my memory.
i dunno if it applies to that song though... it just came to me.. so whatevr!!!


Music Video Idea:
Basically it starts off with a black screen.
Fades to this guy using an above ground shot.
he's sitting around and checks his watch.
zoom to clock.
he looks worried.
he looks up cause someone called him and smiles/looks relieved.
Camera pans to a girl rushing over to him.
wind blowing. that's right. wind blowing. the whooole shebang.
girl comes over and hugs him.
you can tell she's apologizing -pan to face-
guy doesnt care. just keeps hugging her tight
pan to guy's face. he has the expression of pure bliss
pan to girl's face, confused
pan to guy's face, realizes and releases the girl
zoomed out shot to see girl get pushed away more clearly
they smile and laugh and walk off shot to hang out
quick fade out
quick fade in to them hanging out
they're laughing/having a good time
during the fun, guy accidently hits her arm
she flinches and closes her eyes
guy looks worried
guy grabs her hand and pulls up the girl's long sleeve shirt
bruises cover her arms
pan to guy's face
shock turns to worry
worry turns to anger
he starts yelling
she starts looking down, ashamed
then she starts yelling
guy grabs her arm and points to her bruises and continues yelling
pans to girl's face, yelling and crying
slaps guy
runs out
guy looks down. super sad
fade out
fade in to see the outside of the front of the house
girl runs into the shot, out of breath
girl is still crying but composes herself
wipes her tears and walks up to the door and ring the door
door opens, different guy opens door in t shirt and basketball shorts
she smiles and hugs him
guy smiles and caresses her face
they sit down in the guys room and watch tv
guy puts arm over girl's shoulder
girl looks uneasy
guy kisses the girl
and eases her to the ground
girl's eyes are opened, wide eyed and scared
guy goes to her waist and inches lower
girl pushes guy away and holds herself
guy looks at her, enraged
he yells and slaps her
she hold her cheek and is curled on the ground, crying and shaking
guy get even madder
pan to guy as he hits her
he finishes and walk away
she curls and more and slowly stops crying
her face becomes emotionless
[she slowly picks herself up
walks out the door
walks into the living room
guy's on the couch, laughing
turns his head in the direction of the girl "what?"
the girl's says "we're over"
the guy say's "what?!"
the girl just walks away]
first guy is sitting on the same bench he was at the beginning
doesn't look at his watch this time, just waiting
you see the girl limping slowly over
she looks up and sees him
camera shot from her point of view
guy just looks toward the horizon
girl is about 7 feet away from him and he looks over and smiles
girl smiles and then cries and then laughs
he stands up and opens his arms and she runs to him
they hug and sit down
and look at the sun as it sets
fin

dude. i dont like this idea anymore... lol. especially the bracketted parts... i really dont liek that part... i want.. more.. LOL... but i guess that;s just he beginning. towards the middle i got tired of reporting camera angles. i just wanted the story out. -siiiigh- in my mind... the beating is super brutal... and they're good actors... for my possible vids... i see some bad acting going on... and FUNNY ASS BLOOPERS! (:

-m.nguyen

-wheeze- ASTHMA?!

LOL
such a weird day. i woke up late but i didnt mind because i had such a good day yesterday! i had like a good 10 hours?! omg! hella awesome stuff! and then i caught up on my homework and i haven't done that since school's started! LOL (: its very refreshing! this must be what jessica feels like every day! it felt like ORGASMIC! lol! (:

got to school, did history, failed ap chem quiz with kelly (: then got the 'hofer'd out of me. rose gave us the lecture that i always get in every english class every year since my jr high days with ms. bowers. [totally confusing sentence, right? i dont care! i understand! and thats all that matters!] long story short: you guys are noisy, you're big kids; act like one. meaning?! respectful?! courtesy?! and just shutting up?! lol! can my class even do that...?! im always stuck in the noisy english class so im totally used to this lecture, but i feel a tad bit back for rose. she doesnt deserve it. so i hope our class'll shape up a tad (: and it sucks that we got the back review when i wasnt even there... so technically, i didnt even deserve the lecture this time... sucks beans, right?

hmmmm~ then zinner! turns out today was the last day of zinner for me. mr pham has retired. meaning we're down one math teacher. meaning: one new teacher por la quinta!!! side noooote: the admin feel that zinner is so good at geometry that she deserves another class of geometry... MEANING?! WAIT FOR ITTTTTT!!!! IT MEANS IM OUT OF ZINNER BECAUSE MY WHOLE 5TH PERIOD IS GOING TO THE NEW TEACHER!!!! that's riiiight! cool beans right?! HOWEVER: im kinda scared. if this is a totally new teacher, what if that means she sucks? [i think its a she, thats what i've heard] i mean... i dont wanna look back a couple weeks from now freakin regretting that im out of zinner's... eff cake... but... i just need to look ahead and hope that this lady knows her shit and gets hit with ramsey attacks! if only she can teach as well as her!!! i praaaaaaay that it'll be that way!!!

after school is to the doctor's! which i find out that my hypothyroidism actually got worse cause my thryroid got effing bigger... howww whack! AND! while they were checking out my lungs, they said i have asthma... effing splendid! i dunno what i did but i keep getting more shit wrogn with me... and it kinda sucks... but hey... it could be worse, right? (: so i'll just adapt and thank God that im still a-ok (: p.s. to you guys reading, make sure i take my hypo meds everyday... the doctor tried to scare me by saying worse case scenario of me neglecting my meds is coma. i'd liek to avoid that (: OR! it'll just make you guys appreciate me while you gots me! HA!

-m.nguyen

p.s. not joking, i keep forgetting so i'll need ayuda with remembering (:

(:

so uuuuh today was the second day of school!
ALSO: September 11, guys. make sure to pray for all those who died and hope that they go to heaven (:

uhhhh... so far...
im again, super bored in most of my classes... i find myself always looking at the clock cause i just want to get out... daaammmniiit. lol. hate zinner (: she's a nice lady... i just... UHG!

facial today too... im sad... my mommie couldnt do it all summer... so i have to go to school with a fucked up face... brings tears to my eyes man...

buuut~ i might get a hair cut this weekend! wooot

might do soemthign with khang tomorrow too (:

and sarrah this weekend!

I GOT A LOT OF HOMEWORK TOO!

PEACE!

-m.nguyen

quick update

sorry guys.
if you guys have been wondering where i've been.
i just got settled into the new house like one wednesday.
so no internet.
and also... now that i just got internet yesterday, i have like...300 and some pages of reading to do.
that's right! READING! annotating is coming after for me...
i'm gonna have liek a horrible wednesday, my last day of summer!
it'll be: WORK! HOME! EAT! SHOWER! ANNOTATE ANNOTATE ANNOTATE!!!!
however, my coworkers love me! so there's gonna be a potluck just for me!
and its so cool! cause i feel special, even though it isnt my birthday!
but if i remember correctly... it'll be KELLY'S BIRTHDAY!!!
i'll try my best to wish a good one on your special day, dear (:

off to go poo now, cause mother nature is definitely calling!

-m.nguyen

early start yesterday.
i went spirit crazy again but whaaatver.
lol.
the stupid kids didnt laugh at my jokes, but WHATEVER!
and they kepy looking at my name tag to make sure they heard right when i said "hi. my name is maria."
uhh. kathy called and like started apologizing!
oh geebies, kathy! no need to worry!
i'm gonna work hard to fix this thing we gots going on (':

-m.nguyen