(:

and so.
today i woke up quite early to do the recordings and such for senior tribute. marcie came over and was the witch. i'm dorothy. yuups~

then downstairs to eat breakfast. then mommie took me to the mall with marcie [instead of linh] and we looked for a something i could wear to the upcoming banquets. i found a dark blue dress to match jeff for tennis banquet but i dunno.. we'll see if sarrah [my cousin] likes it. if she does then i'll be very satisfied. cause its very casual and kinda like summer dress-ish. so imma wear this belt and a cardigan to class it up. hopefully it works. then im planning to borrow marcie's friend's goddess costume for drama's "blast through time" banquet. if not, im off to target to buy bedsheets to make a TOGA! imma go goddess! it's gonna be the shit. :) any idea? hit me UP!

i hella wasted money today. i got a dq ice cream cone, orange julius, charley's fries, two sunglasses [cause it was $3 each and one's for linh], a dress, a tanktop [for sarrah], a polo [for mommie], a white v-neck [ONLY $5! and it was medium! fate!], wendy's chicken nuggets [for linda], old navy's flip flops[only like $2.50!] and mini cinnabons [for family]. i dunno. i think they're more! but i dunno! but so much! shiiiz! lol! it was fun though... i mightbe all set for this week... now tomorrow's gonna be horrible... so much homework!

oh! and i signed up for driver's ed and save like $20 bucks cause like dude, it's may and they're giving 20% off for online classes! (: yay!

-m.nguyen

sigh.

i regret it. i feel like it wasn't even worth it. i shouldn't have done it so freakin a...
then there was like senior tribute practice that waaas good, but freakin people! -cough- MICHELLE -cough- freakin kicked my cousin's scooter... im not even gonna be tolerable towards her anymore! also! practice was going so nicely... but then freakin a... hella screwed up all kinds of things! and they're all effing hypocrites!

but you know what that makes me think of?! do you know what today makes me think of?!

-sigh-

it makes me think about what a bad person i am... freakin... why am i such a hater? why must i freakin hate people?! why cant i be a better person... i try my best to look in the good of people but why the hell do i have to be liek this? i hope that one day i can just like everyone... but they make it so hard... i dunno... i just hope i can... be better??? be a lover... not a hater. you know what sucks? i hate haters...

-m.nguyen

p.s. omg! "i hate haters" is a total paradox!

GOODNESS.

goodness! it seems things are being misinterpreted! and jessica is all kinds of grumpy about it! tsk tsk tsk, right?! lol! i shall see what i'll do about it. frankly. i'm offended. like pretty much SUPER offended! to think im thought of like that... shame... -sigh-

BUT ON A HAPPIER NOTE!

I WANT TO REMEMBER THIS FOR A LOOONG TIME TO COME!

okay so! guys! liek dude! today i had senior tribute practice that was supposed to end around 4-ish and jeff had his bl interview that would end around like 4:15-ish. but dude. practice ended up being as late as like 5:20?! 5:30?! omgoodness... ridonckulous. but yeah. i finally got the dance down. ah! wait! continuing! so! while im dancing, i see jeff kinda talking off to the side with different people. i see him. but then soemtimes when i look back, he isnt there! also! he was talking to the and kevin and stuff so im just liek 'oOo... maybe he's gonna leave... oh wells~ i mean i already talked to him so its fine :]' but then when i kept on dancing, i noticed he sat down near where i was practicing and was liek talking to henry. and im like 'aah~ he's stil here :] maybe he's waiting for me?!' but when practice finally finished and i went to get my books, i had to make sure so i was like "JEFFREY! ARE YOU WAITING FOR ME?!" in my squeaky high voice and he looks at me and is like -nod nod- in the way that totally says "uh huh uh huh!" cant you imagine it?!?! but yeah! so im like "OKAY! IMMA GET MY BOOKS! I'LL BE RIGHT BACK!" and so when i get back i give him a neil hug [neil! not an insult! its just that you hug me so awkwardly! liek you dont wanna touch me!] cause im all like sweaty/stinky/wet! but jeff tells me "so i totally shot a hilarious video of freeman!" and im like "niiice! did he know you were shooting it?" and he;s like "uh... i dont think so. but you cant hear it out here so let's go inside" inside meaning the 300 building. so we go inside and he's liek "are you ready?" and im like "yuuup!" but i cant really see anything. or hear anything... i kinda hear "blah blah FREEMAN! blah ROOOOOAR! blah blah" and jeff notices i cant hear well so he puts the phoen near my ear and i hear "jeffrey wanted me to ask you if you wanted to go to tennis banquet with him!" and my expression is liek totally "omg! did that just happen?!" and i shout out "OF COURSE!" and liek jeff shows me the video again! and this time i hear and see EVERYTHING! and there's freeman sitting in his room and he suddenly looks at the camera and is like "this is FREEMAN! ROOOOOAR! hey maria. jeffrey wanted me to ask you if you wanted to go to tennis banquet with him!" and i hella shout "OF COURSE!" again! and then jeff's all like "i wanted to ask you! but i didnt wanna just... ask you! i had to think of something!" and liek seriously! im totally wow'ed! i mean this is so cuuute! and so sweeet! this is liek major props! jeff! you're so amazingly creative! after a horribly sweaty practice, i'd have never imagined that this was gonna happen! i just feel bad that someone that looked as bad as me was the person you asked to banquet! omgoodness! i'll try to look my best for banquet! goodness! and i absolutely apologize for having to make you wait! you could have pulled me away from practice! goodness! i know how much you hate walking home so im really sorrry! but thanks for totally being the best guy EVER! :D i love you so much! goodness!

ofcourse i had to tell everyone this. so all the girls of m[a]jkk know about this :] i cant just not brag, right? kekeke :] i've also had a couple on intense convos with them today annnnd~ cleared some misunderstandings.

and so i wait for tomorrow and what i might do...

-m.nguyen

p.s. omg... right?! LOL

don't read this. it's just venting.

first off! i'm pissed! you kidding me?! it's the effing junior's responsibility to handle the sounds and shit for senior tribute! now I have to do it?! what is this!? lipsync?! hell no! i swear! i can not handle lipsync again! im doing this and its the last time! all cause i wanna freakin help marcie. but you guys know how much i hate doing it.

i wouldnt mind effing doing it if you guys freakin appreciated me. i mean seriously. i do something EXACTLY the way you guys want it and its like "oh... it's not right. we dont liek it. do it over. and do this do this and do that." i mean i seriously wanna go "fuck you! alright?! you do it then if you dont liek it!" but i end up doign it anyway so what's the point? and do i get a thank you when you FINALLY liek it?! hell no! man! this is why im not doign lipsync next year! you guys are gonna appreciate me when im gone! and if you dont! then you've found someone else and i dotn have to deal with it anymore. eff cakes. you guys can all eat eff cakes.

we've til next week til we perform. i hope we do well... dances are easy and hard but whatever. i'll do your fucking music. but that's the last time. i'll reconsider senior year but right now im feelign liek this is the last time. some of you guys in c/o '11 really piss me off. that's why im not even considering doing like asb or anything. i dotn want to deal with you guys. -sigh- sometimes i hope and kinda, ONLY KINDA, pray that i come to strongly dislike you. cause i hate saying hate.

-m.nguyen

p.s. omgoodness! this rant was crazy! sorry! i dunno! they're pissing me off! it's an exaggeration that none of them appreciate me. only most of them dont. :| i dont like being mean... but i just get kinda super pissed when i dont even get a thank you... dudes... am i kinda liek mr cox and his liek total "hate" for admin?!?! kekeke :]

uh... third off?

MJKK! i think im gonna make this official? i dunno! should the A be removed? any protests? if you're reading this, yes... i'm talkign to you! YOOOOUUU! do you want to be removed? if you dont, freakin say something... you've no idea how long i've been waiting.

continuing! MJKK! today was lovely dears. i didnt expect today to turn out the way it did. but it did. and im glad. everyone seems just that much happier. and im glad :] is it possible the mjkk is being restored? i felt it drifting since a while ago... but you guys just refused to let that happen, eh? well, thank you very much for it. i'm relieved. and thankful. is this the feelign of gratitude?! kekeke. heart you guys dearly. especially when we were all yelling at the same time today! ALSO! that's unfair! you guys cant feel left out! i was the one who was left out! shiiiiz~ jessica talked to me cause YOU GUYS DIDNT!

-sigh-

heart you guys :]

on a totally different subject... guys... omgoodness... i got a freakin 3/3+ on my essay. i think i might cry from happiness. seeing as i expected a 1 and only wanted a 2+ as a dream... i really did almost cry.

and on a painful note: I FELL OFF MY SCOOTER TODAY! freakin a! lol! went to my ba noi's house afterschool today to mess aroudn a little and do a little hw. but kevin calls and is like "are you at school?" so i ride my way to school on my cousins scooter, being awfully weary of the little bumps/cracks on the ground. making sure to lift my scooter above those things that'll break my mommie's back... but i guess i was having too much fun... cause a coupel house's away from my ba noi's house... i freakin hit this HUUUGE crack! AND I EFFING FLEW! i mean flew! off the scooter! i tried to catch myself my puttign my hands in front of me. this was all happening slo-mo, guys! SLO-MO! and while i was fallign i was like, pardon the language, "FUUUUUCK! SHIIIT!" and then bam! couldnt catch myself! landed on my shoulder! and then my left knee was burning. i turn over on my butt. bam! it's all brown and white. the whitest part looks liek my bone. but no worries, it wasnt :] but dudes! guys! omgoodness! so im lookign at it and im just like "get up! it doesnt hurt! it only burns like a lot!" in my head and brushign off my shoulder. and then i hear a window open from the house that i've landed in front of. i look up. i hear a voice go "ARE YOU OKAAAAY?!" and im ridonckulously horrified! an old white lady just asked me in sweet voice if im okay and i had just cussed ridiculously loud on her front yard! i was like "ah! yeah! thank you! i'm okay! sorry! ah! thank you!" and i try to scurry off! im like scootering away cause that shiz is embarrassing! when i look down the next time! my left knee's bleeding and it's dripping! woot, right? lol. thanks chris for the bandaid. during practice, i peeled it off due to the overflowing blood and pus :] thanks marcie for the extra bandaid.

-m.nguyen

second off!

ANDREW! this was for... uh... sunday! congrats! congrats for being like 22 and getting your master's! ahhh! only you could do that! become uber rich and totally spend money on me :] and thanks for inviting us to celebrate with you. cause of that i taught everyone the WATERMELON GAME. and khang taught us the WINKING GAME! guys! remind me to teach you guys this game! soooo much fun! :D

-m.nguyen

p.s. CASSIDY! her party was on sunday too! happy birthday! it was on memorial day though. lol. kekeke.

first off!

jessica ! i heart talking on the phone with you! saturday was hilarious! this blog shall be dedicated to it! it was uuuber fun! we gotta do it more often! shiiiiz~ hella CONNECTION! and i notice we talk about sad stuff, happy stuff, serious stuff, weird stuff, hyper stuff, and asdfghjkl! all that good stuff! kekeke :D it's always fun. glad we're doign this more often :]

oh! this isnt that important but i also had my gl interview saturday. to be exact: 11:50 at lq. it went horribly, thanks for asking :] but im over it. if im not in... it's definitely not the end of the world. plus! i felt better when khang picked me up and talked to me and shiiiz~ then took me to costco! and i vegitarian'ed my combo pizza!!! and we went to starbuck's to study! with john vu (robert's brother! that's right! BOB!)! and dudes! i got coffee too! i heart my brother! he's mean sometimes but he always knows when to be nice! pizza and caramel frap. -tears-

-m.nguyen

p.s. for saturday. thanks for talking about random stuff with me :] heart jessica d nguyen <3

don't you hate it when...?

so me and jessica were talking earlier... and i was thinking... i'll want to remember this one day...

don't you guys hate it when you get all like emo and shiz and you freakin kinda get stuck in it? the emotions wrap around your ankles and when you struggle to free yourself from sadness and depression so you dont freakin trip... you end up falling on yo face! and it gets all up in your nose and your eyes and makes you feel like you wanna cry to get that uncomfortable feeling off your face and body! and it only makes you sadder cause it gets your hands and shit stuck too! then! before you know it! you're like effing drowning in stupid emo feelings!

-sigh-

but i've found from experience.... a sure solution to get out of that tar pit of emotional dilemnas...

you flip around so the stupid gunk and shit gets all out of your face.... take a deep breath... and wait. slowly... ever so slowly... but definitely SURELY... a friend will come and grab your hand. sometimes its a friend you'd never expect... and sometimes its a friend that was there all along... but that friend will help you get out of that tar pit of shit and definitely unstickify you.

the bad side? i've realized that once your ankle deep in this emo feeling... you have to go through the whole process of being sad... and that period in which your fighting off the sadness is ridiculously unbearable. but just rememeber!

aja aja FIGHTING!

-m.nguyen

go!

and so! i watched terminator today! with khang, linh and daddie. it was a family thing and it was AWESOME! we ate california fish grill too! soooo goood! for both! that movie is really good! like dude. guys... go.watch.it. you will not regret this! i guarantee it! fo sho! lol! it's ridiculously good! that's 2 amazing movies in a row! IT'S RIDONCKULOUS! and that guy from charlie bartlett is in it! i dunno his name but i'll learn it! i like him as an actor! :D guys! terminator salvation will not be money wasted! trust me!!!

and so! AH! my interview's tomorrow guys. i hope that i can just be relaxed and chill. i hope i dont choke. and! make a good impression! it's at school @ 11:50... khang's gonna take me down and i dunno... GAH! what'll i do?! and jessica! you and me! -bzzzzt- CONNECTION! tomorrow! we have a phone date, dear :] heart you.

-m.nguyen

p.s. wish me luck, lovelies

p&o

and so~
today i watched star trek! that movie is liek so amazingly good! omg! i was hungry before watchign that movie! and when i was watching, it totally made me forget! THAT'S HOW YOU KNOW A MOVIE IS GOOD! WHEN IT MAKES YOU FORGET YOUR HUNGER PAINS! :] go out an watch it, foos~ GO! lol :]

went home and didnt resume cleaning. lol. i'd promised my mom to clean my room before 5. i didnt keep it... im a bad daughter, arent i? it looks a lot better though! i woke up at 8 today [even though i was supposed to wake up at 7] to clean! it's all for neil. don't you feel special, neil? hmmm?! lol. i promised my mommie to clean my room and do my laundry before going to key club banquet. i went as neil's date. all for you neil. i suffered just for you. thanks for the invite, neil. it was pretty fun. and everyone was very nice. even though at times it was awkward >.<

so i'm home. and i need to finish up my room which is kinda sorta clean and do a lot more laundry. wish me fun... NOT.

-m.nguyen

oh shit... i pray that this isn't true.

If I had to choose between
loving you and breathing,
I would use my last breath
to say "I love you".
- anonymous

we don't have time to waste
asking for things we don't have.
we can only look for the best way
to fight with the things we have.

where was i?

lol. so we left off on:

after the boy strut off and abandoned the daily lunch together with the ctl, the friends decided to make the girl completely guilty and refused to let the girl enjoy her mischievous joke...

the girl was struck with a horrible revelation. was it possible that she had taken the joke too far? was her male friend's feelings actually hurt? or was the boy just getting revenge as well?

the next day the girl didn't meet up with the ctl before school, fearing the awkward silences between the boy and her. however, at break, their meeting was inevitable. the girl's mind was thinking rapidly. how should she apologize to the boy? 'bluntly saying "i'm sorry" would be awkward,' thought the girl. as break ended, she was struck with an idea that was inspired from her friend, mr. poTAYdo head. she decided to begin her apology, as a story. she used her friend mrs. chipmunk as a vehicle for the boy to hear her story. she also offered half an orange as a peace offering. juuuuuuust in case.

lunch began and ended in a flash. she still hadn't apologized yet. as the table slowly dispersed, the girl and the boy were left at the table alone. making eye contact, the boy shouts "MARIA! LET'S BE FRIENDS AGAIN!" and the girl shouts "I KNOW! I'M SO SORRY!"

heart you, jeffie :] Joking Even For Fun Really Eats Yogurt (?!) lol! sorry! i needed a 'y' but i couldnt think of anythign else. lolol :]

to jeff: lots of love for one of my best buds :] though it was fun just messign with you before, it really sucked when you started looking sad. im glad im surrounded by friends that can so easily turn on me when i'm in the wrong and make me feel HORRIBLE! lol. it's also very reassuring knowing that our friends are there to back you up no matter what, even if it means turning on me! i think you're the only one at the table that can so easily contort everyone's feelings and use them as a form of an offense! only you can turn everyone against me. and i love that? lol. yup. i definitely love it cause i think even i turned on myself when you were "mad" at me. i'm glad-- no, i'm fortunate that we're friends and hope we stay that way forever and ever. go get yourself a freakin mini-van and take me to disneyland! we'll spring break it all over again! :]

-m.nguyen

p.s. yuuuup~ love the ending :]

it's simple really--

lol. lemme tell you a story:
there was once a girl and she was very gorgeous and everyone liked her. she had a group of friends who all hung out named themselves the crew table lunch. that's right. the crew table lunch. in this group of friends, was a boy. and this boy was very kind and loved by everyone at the table, even more so than the girl. weeeeelllll~ one day, not long ago, the girl ventures back from answering mother nature's call with two friends from the ctl. being the devious girl she was, she decided to play a joke on her male friend that had abandon her things in a teacher's class. she pretends to be furious and hurts the male friend's feelings. realizing her mistake, she quickly apologizes and begs forgiveness. in that exact moment, the boy's expression changes from agonizingly sad to a jokester's sick smile. she had been tricked! "furious", she pouts her way to english, all the while, plotting her revenge against the boy from the ctl.
the next day, she decides she will continue to be furious with the boy and ignores his existance. flabbergasted, the boy became unable to respond to the sudden shunning. however, suddenly! the boy decides to wage war! BUT! then he decides! he shall make his female friend the enemy of the ctl by turning her friends against her! after strutting off and abandoning the daily lunch together with the ctl, the friends decide to make the girl completely guilty and refuses to let the girl enjoy her mischievious joke.

TO BE CONTINUED!

p.s. lol! sorry! i cant finish! sister's being b***hy with me right now so i have to get off. i wrote it real fast so pardon all its crappiness. i just want to remember this event and it's hilarity

p.s.#2 i really like the ending of this story :]

don't do it

dude. tears. FOREVER! watched the new x-man movie today. like wolverine origins or something like that... horrible mistake. so sad :'[ i mean like it was TERRIBLE! lol! just terrible! even the cgi's sucked! and that's sad! a new movie and you expect something good, especially with the graphics but no! it was crap! so disappointing! -teeeeeaaaaars- what the heck?! and they like changed up the whole story line! WHY STAN LEE?! WHY?! WHY'D YOU LET THEM DO THIS?! YOU HAD IT GOING GOOD! YOU SHOULD HAVE JUST STAYED WITH THAT! WHYYY?! pluuus~ no stan lee cameo on this one. and gambit! he's in it! and i heart gambit! but this guy! he's UGGO! and! and! he's french! BUT NOT! the heck!? LAME! AHHHHHGGG!

-m.nguyen

p.s. sarrah! our run today was amazing! lunges-- killer! squats-- horrible! ab workout-- GAH! it was fuuuuun! let's keep doing this every week! we gotta watch ourselves tomorrow! we can do it! maintain eachother's food intake! we can DO THIS!

i dont wanna read it anyways

i dont wanna read it anyways!
end convo. >:[

-m.nguyen

p.s. charley's aunt was fantastic. way to go jonathan s. :] spectacular man, spectacular! vincent! hard to understand but funny. good job, k.dao's cousin, khang :] and el oh el for paul :]

p.s.#2 KEEP YOUR SHIRT ON!

p.s. #3 they snuck out in the middle to do the NASTY! >.<