early start yesterday.
i went spirit crazy again but whaaatver.
lol.
the stupid kids didnt laugh at my jokes, but WHATEVER!
and they kepy looking at my name tag to make sure they heard right when i said "hi. my name is maria."
uhh. kathy called and like started apologizing!
oh geebies, kathy! no need to worry!
i'm gonna work hard to fix this thing we gots going on (':

-m.nguyen

-shrug-

early start prep today...
im so gonna be an awesome leader!
the freshies... they gonna go kwazie!
jeffie is my partner.
it was super hot today.
went to doctor's again.
i got hypothyroidism.
it's an immune disease or whatever.
yeah.
that was my day.

-m.nguyen

p.s. carl's jr's big carl is pretty alright!

p.s. #2 carl's jr + tastea = delicious!

omg! camera!

'nuff said!
lol! just kidding (:
basically, my brother went online and found me a camera for like... 65 bucks?!
it's a freakin steal!!!! that's liek not even half my pay check! CHA-CHING!
that's all i wanted to say.
(:

-m.nguyen

p.s. miss you guys.

p.s. #2 i found the shoes jessica, should i buy them?!?!?

thank you.

oh goodness.
super vent today (: thanks jessica. like it just came bursting out of me but yups. -sigh-
was supposed to try on the dress for GL today but no go. they haven't finished it yet. uhg. whatever. now after work, i gotta go tomorrow. then go to the mall for a bit. (: then rush home and do more packing. yes! awesome! i love packing! noooot~

and since i have to try on my dress, and the fittings were a few weeks ago... i scared... i mean.. i feel fatter... and i think my tummie's been growing... even though i've been p90x-ing every single day... but whatever! if i seriously dont fit into the dress tomorrow... imma super diet. FO SHO!

AJA AJA FIGHTING!

-m.nguyen

duude... wtf?!

omg... i was reading a couple of my blogs again and i noticed... wtf?! my blogs have been so sad lately! my blog is called "smile." but a lot of these blogs are written with me just kinda bummed out... i dunno... but this summer is pretty whack... so much shit been happening... stupid ass family issues that makes me worry like no other... and it's fucked up. i hate it.

but hey! that doesnt mean my summer was ONLY filled with shit. good things happened too! like today for example. my brother surprised my little sister and me by taking us to "medieval times"! alan priester and john vu came too! happy belated john (: but yeah! go green knight! so awesome! i wont blog too many details, just in case you guys ever go... but yeah... super duper fuun~ but im glad that i had fun today... makes me forget about the things that have been happening. im really starting to rely on God. but when i think about it... i feel like a bad catholic... why is it that i am able to pray so hard and depend on God so much only in times of hardship? why dont i pray and be thankful to Him when things are going well? i know i have so many blessings... but... why dont i thank Him everyday for it? and now that im scared of the future... and the happenings in my family... am i even allowed to ask Him to help me? it sounds so wrong and selfish... it's just.... i know i can turn to Him... but i wonder if He'll still answer my prayers when i dont even deserve to ask Him of anything... i'm such a bad catholic... i dunno. -sigh-

long story short: fun day. thankful to God. wish i was better to Him.

-m.nguyen

touched by God?

my mommie picked me up from work today... she drove me down to santa ana and we went to visit my ba ngoai. but instead, i visited my uncle and aunt. i found out some stuff today... and it's making me really hate summer... i never really realized how much auntie lan has on her shoulders... i knew uncle tam is the way he is... he's far too nice for his own good... and now im just worried... i feel so out of whack right now... i made sure to hug auntie lan multiple times and i repeatedly told her i loved her...

afterwards, my mommie went to pick up bac tam up and they went to check out these stores... they left me alone and omg guys... i started praying for my family, and especially for uncle tam... and when i started praying... i started crying... and these tears kept falling and i kept praying harder and harder... i couldnt stop and my nose started runnign and this man saw me crying... and i forced myself to stop... i got out east of eden and pretended nothign happenned... i just sniffled and held back my tears cause i was scared my mommie would come back at any moment and see me. and while i was reading, suddenly, the man was infront of me. he had napkins in his hand and put them on my table. he spoke so fast i couldnt comprehend! i knew it was english... and the only word i heard was "psalm". so im sure that he spoke a psalm to me because he saw me praying and crying and because of his kind act... my tears flowed again. i freakin cried harder than the first time... and i was thankful. this man i didnt even know saw a girl crying and tried to help her. and im grateful. i cant help but think that god somewhat helped me through this man and hopefully this means that he will also answer my prayers.

later on, bac tam sat down with me and luckily, she didnt notice i had been crying... it was very relieving... but then! the man suddenly came up again and talked to bac tam. he asked her and me why a girl like me was crying and i panicked. in my mind i was like "oh crap!" and i lied! on accident! i was like "im not sad (:" and bac tam was like "yeah... she's just reading her book." and he saw right through me! he said "this girl is sad. i dont know why but she is. and she was crying" then this part is hazy... and i hate it cause i know it was important... but i know he said soemthing about God. and again.. i heard only the last of what he said. "Matthew 28." do you guys know matthew 28 says? i really want to find out.

i dunno... i just really felt God today. and i thought i needed to blog about this. i dont ever want to forget this... i dunno if you guys ever have these days... where you're so glad you have God in your life. but im glad today happened... it reminded me how much i depend and love God. I love Jesus, yes i do. I love Jesus, how 'bout you?

-m.nguyen

I FORGOT!

LOL! since you guys read my previous blog and i was so into writing it! i forgot to mention what else happened today! or i mean... yesterday... july 31st! i got my permit! oh yeah! minus 6 points which is sad but whatever! pass is a pass, right? if you guys need to look at my test, you can. it's pretty easy. most of it is common sense, but if you need the help (:

uhh. i kinda wanna apologize to you guys. well... the bunch of you that felt really bad reading my previous blog. evidently, it was "totally maria" [which makes me ticked off... cause im far too predictable!] but i still feel bad. you guys... im sorry if you guys are feeling guilty cause of what i wrote. i didnt mean it to hit you that way. it was just me being a douche and i apologize. i meant everything i said, from the bottom of my heart, but you guys know me... those little things that were in the past are past. no need to worry about them. jessica: i apologize for making you head spin and you dizzy. kelly: im sorry for making you feel like shit while reading it. and kathy! im sorry that i made you feel bad.

it's just... sometimes i feel bad. it's like... when we're all united, the lunchtable crew, we all have fun and i love that... but thats liek only when we're together... i've just been missing the old times when we always talked not cause we had soemthing urgent to say, but just to say hi and talk about random shit. i just brought it to the table... we'll just have to see how we all deal with it now.

love you guys, sorry im a douche,
-m.nguyen

p.s. OHMYGAWD! i forgot to mention! today is like my 5th? maybe 6th day of p90x!!! this 90 day work out thing! maybe you guys have seen the info-mercial! but duuude! shit's hard! and i really hope i got the straight 90 days... cause that means this one pack i call my belly will be flat, toned, AND SEXY! LOL!

you guys wanna know yet?

so... im ready to tell you guys... it's like official now... i found out this afternoon (the afternoon of july 31, not august 1).
hmm... i just keep thinking... how should i tell you? i feel like i should call you guys... but im scared of your reactions. i feel like i should hug you... but im scared that you will cry. i feel like i shouldnt be writing this... but my fingers just wont stop... how should i start this? should i even start it this way? -sigh-

i just wanna say:
you guys are like amazing. i know you think you know how "awesome" you guys are. but thats not even the gist of it. [just in case you were wondering, that's pronounced 'jist'. lol.] like omg! how could i be so lucky to have been blessed with such great friends?! you guys dont even know how much i pray for you guys... you know when you have a really good day and shit? you know why it was so good? it was thanks to me! ME! i made sure to get yo back so you'd have a good day! me and jesus... yeah... we homies. LOL. but yeah!

DUY! EFFING DOUCHE! WE ALWAYS BE CO WORKERS!!!! also. thank you! thanks to you answering me at like 1 in the morning, i got the norp order right :]

poTAYdo! we've known each other for so long and liek dude. sometimes... i think about how we became friends and im so glad it happened! im really glad that i started hating girls in fifth grade :']

kevinluuluu :] you think im so smug? well i wonder why!!!!! i'd say you give the best hugs cause you're like my perfect height-- so perfect that i hope my next boyfriend is as tall as you-- but no! i wont say it! know why?! cause everyone else says it too! even though i said it first! and im not conform to those lame-o's! so bleh!

jeffie... you are so amazingly quirky and sweet! you stupid "nice jerk"!!! how can you make me laugh so much?! and be so serious about things that are just too funny?!?!

that's norp! buuuut~ time to get started on mjkk :]

of course m! it's for meeeeeee~ ;'] im like the magnae and the best of them :] sorry jessica, if it werent for me, you'd be in this spot. roar attack, right?

speaking of jessica! duude. -BZZZT- connection! thanks for always thinking of me dear... always making sure im not left out when kelly and kathy were ignoring me... you douche bags! shiiit! that's why it's nice when you call me... it's always like "hey..i just thought you should know.." all serious and shit.. then 3 minutes later. "DUDE! OMG! THE FUNNIEST THING HAPPENED!" LOL! gooood times :']

kelly... stupid shaqaisha... or however you spell it! how come you never hang out with us?! it always seems like your parents say no, but is that really true?! or you just ditchign us?! lol! just kidddding~ i feel like we're drifting... and seriously? i hate it. i kinda feel that when we talked the other day, we're kinda getting back to how we were. i hate that we drifted... and i dunno how it happened... but i hope we can get back to how things should be... hopefully :'[

kathy! dude! you dont even talk to me any more?! what the hell is up with that?! lol! even though you dont even talk to me any more... you stupid jerk... i still heart you. hit me up sometimes!!! geebies!

-sigh- i love you guys... have i build up enough suspense yet? have you guys cried out your tears cause you're thinking the worst...?

[norp] + [mjkk] = ltc.

so what happens if there's no [m]? is it still ltc? or will sophia replace me, jessica?!?! i'm moving guys.

love,
m.nguyen

p.s. are you guys overreacting? are you totally mad at me? cause i told you this way?! well deal with it! cause i dont wanna deal with it! -sigh- it took me almost two hours to write this... it took like forever... also cause i was chatting. lol. psst. guys. just so you dont liek kill me... i'm moving closer to lq. hope you enjoyed this blog. cause i hope you guys are piiisssssed~ all that effort better of made you guys totally appreciate me! LOL