omg... i was reading a couple of my blogs again and i noticed... wtf?! my blogs have been so sad lately! my blog is called "smile." but a lot of these blogs are written with me just kinda bummed out... i dunno... but this summer is pretty whack... so much shit been happening... stupid ass family issues that makes me worry like no other... and it's fucked up. i hate it.
but hey! that doesnt mean my summer was ONLY filled with shit. good things happened too! like today for example. my brother surprised my little sister and me by taking us to "medieval times"! alan priester and john vu came too! happy belated john (: but yeah! go green knight! so awesome! i wont blog too many details, just in case you guys ever go... but yeah... super duper fuun~ but im glad that i had fun today... makes me forget about the things that have been happening. im really starting to rely on God. but when i think about it... i feel like a bad catholic... why is it that i am able to pray so hard and depend on God so much only in times of hardship? why dont i pray and be thankful to Him when things are going well? i know i have so many blessings... but... why dont i thank Him everyday for it? and now that im scared of the future... and the happenings in my family... am i even allowed to ask Him to help me? it sounds so wrong and selfish... it's just.... i know i can turn to Him... but i wonder if He'll still answer my prayers when i dont even deserve to ask Him of anything... i'm such a bad catholic... i dunno. -sigh-
long story short: fun day. thankful to God. wish i was better to Him.
-m.nguyen
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